I’m feeling unusually stressed today. It’s no one thing, it’s a collection of smaller things that happen to have heaped onto this one day. But man, those can add up, can’t they?
The unfortunate thing about that particular kind of stress, the nickel and dime kind, is that there’s not one big, sweeping thing that can deal with it. It’s not a tooth issue that the dentist will just take care of. It’s not a big problem at the job that a talk with the manager will sort out.
It’s things around the house, it’s family stuff, it’s various job stuff, it’s plans that are needed to execute and approaching fast but still in flux for new reasons, it’s family and personal obligations, it’s my new email service recently dropping the ball with a few very basic functionality issues and me now looking at maybe having to change providers all over again (he writes as he’s still finding rarely used sites that still have the old email address used for those accounts, so still updating even those, and now maybe an even newer one will be needed? Gah!)… it’s all a lot of unique issues that all need to be dealt with individually.
Then of course the reverse is true of the relative relief felt: Each one, whenever they’re finally quelled one at a time, will be good to have squared away. But each individual thing will only offer a bit of relief. All together, if indeed all ever really can be finished, will remove cumulative stress, but to get there, each one thing requires unique attention and focus and time (that age-old foe) to contend with, and it feels like I don’t have any of those to spare at the moment. But somehow they need to be dealt with. And so it all just weighs on me.
*sigh*
Apologies for the downer post despite trying to keep things lighter. But yeah, at the moment it’s not good times.